warm beer and cigarettes

Your mouth tasted like

warm beer and cigarettes 

and I couldn’t help feeling sad 

every time you came close to me 

searching for inebriated

carnal touch. 

I slipped away but finally gave in

and as we kissed I wondered

what kind of poem would this moment give birth to?

would it be a joyful description of a happy day

ending in tragedy, like Tarkovsky would do? 

or rather a kavafian blend 

of desire and nostalgia

ως ταιριαζα πολυ? 

but your mouth tasted bitter

like warm beer and cigarettes 

and nauseated I unraveled my body from your body 

deciding that whatever poem would sprout 

I was not willing to write it.